WANING Memory

Its been so long, what are you doing here? Alone? Not working today?

Or similar phrase…

Eh, why the weird expression on your face – you can’t recognize me? No, of course I do, so what are you doing here?

Oh man, how often have you found yourself entangled in this kinda situation? And I’m really saying when you’re caught in familiar situation but unable to recall, ah ya – recall is da’ word. Am I growing fainter? Hey but im only 28 – are these signs telling me something? It’s been more than one occasion and can't help feeling the worst

Situation One @ Me at PC Fair, KLCC – Met a friend and we called up upon one another, but I cant remember which friend of mine, but I carry on the conversation as thou as we haven’t met for ages. I left the place thinking hard and confused!

Situation Two @ Me at DM Seminar, PJ – I was listening attentively to a speaker during a seminar when a guy turned back and smile at me and my mummy. I smiled back and then I start to think, who is this guy – I know him but I can’t seem to recall. My mum smiled at him too. I thot, hmm who is he? I kept on pushing my mum, who is he, who is he? I kept asking until she told me, he is the guy from the Prawn mee shop-la, you forgotten? You’ve been eating from that shop since young, I was oh ya, its him – oh man!

Situation Three @ MMU convocation, Cyberjaya – I tell you, this is superbly MEMALUKAN. A gal walks up to me and say, hie, can’t recognize me? I was like I know her but I cant recall again. Then her dad walks up, wah – still need to charge me? I was like huh? You’re just a friend and as there were so many packages offered and many people hogging around the counter, I pass them the leaflet and says, "why don’t you go and study which one you’d like and get back to me". Whilst after that, the episode kept playing on my mind, I was trying to figure out who they were. I went in to look for my mum who was at the studio side, I asked who’s ROBE and paper bag is this? Then mum told me, it’s your COUSIN BRO’s – Ah Nee’s graduating, that’s her robe. Oh my GOD, I let out a loud thud, mum – you know what, I pass them a leaflet thinking they were some of my friends, but hey, they're my RELATIVES and I can’t recognize them, no wonder they asked me if I want to charge them. At that point of time, I really don’t know where to hide my face

Im beginning to get very afraid and as I told SK bout’ the issue, he was like “Lil gal, you don’t scare me eh your situation doesn’t sound promising – better go do some check! "

Check again? Hmm, I hope it’s not related to my partial epilepsy condition which saw me ending up in hospital early of the year, but the ECG scan has clear me, I thot. I was admitted to hospital for the condition as I fell into abrupt unconsciousness during my sleep when I was in HK last Dec. I had zero idea what happen the night before coz when I woke up, I saw white ceilings around me and then a DOCTOR asking me if I know where am I and what happen? I can’t remember a single thing and people who saw the ordeal says I was quivering all over and bit my tongue, scary (my immediate thot was at the climb of the MACAU TOWER which could be the main reason why i had an abrupt SEIZURE)

The last check I had with my neurologist few months ago was all right as I just need to continue taking my prescription. Hmm, sounds bad huh? Spoke to WIL recently about the incident at MMU and his reaction was “Champion la you, would you be able to remember me the next time we meet on the street”? I was like uh-huh, I can’t be that bad right?" And so I thought…

Chances are – I can but if I do behave unusually, do hark back at me – for you may not know this girl has actually FORGOTTEN.

Tight Spot

The answer was so obvious, but apparently I’m still thinking, thinking and thinking very hard on it.

WHY?

Cos’ my heart told me I want that while my Brain heads for another one - Sounds so familiar eh? I bet everyone comes thru this stage of their life every now and then

How to choose? They both came at the same time and another one seems to be on the way too. Suddenly I have to sit down and re-evaluate the one’s that’s goin to be the BEST for me (and have NO REGRETS for it!)

What’s running thru my mind now? All the WHAT Ifs, WHAT if this is better, WHAT if that was better? WHAT if it would not turn out the way I want it to be? WHAT If the other ones can give me the stuffs that I’m looking for all my life? ARghhhhh, talk to me about CHOICES we have to make in LIFE, DARN

As I was thinking hard about the issue, the radio suddenly played this song – “Que Sera Sera, whatever will be, will be, the FUTURE’s not ours to see, Que Sera Sera, what will be, will be”

Just how this song was able to ease my uncertainties at this point of time & as I look up the SKY, GOD – I know you’ve bring me to it and you’ll be there to bring me through it…

Different Peoples, Different Interpretations

Human Behaviours - the different types, the different personalities and how it oftens leave one bewildered and amused!

I was working at the MMU convocation - man, promotions for the graduates are really simple and straightforward. Yet, yet peoples can come back with so many different kind of response. Funny, ridiculous, obscure but yet intimidating at times. Read the below...

"Miss, how come the promotion so expensive? Can I get this and not that?Any further discount?", It's on offer and promotion period now - Sir/Madam, boss says cannot."

"Why is there so many people queueing up? I thot i dont have to queue? (harlo, auntie - even you go to a fast food outlet also you have to queue up right), blatantly c2pid question. I wana report you to student council (ohh, like i care!), go ahead by all means!"

"Miss, I didn't bring my receipt with me but im goin back to my hometown, can you let me take it? And cases continued with so many lames one coming w/o receipts, i said - NO receipt, no collection, bring the receipts or we have to charge again, hope you understand otherwise my business would close shop in no time". All these bloody excuses ...

Another funny one was the guy says he will give me a letter of undertaking to prove that he paid but lost his receipt. He said he was rushing but he dwell on the matter for 1 & half hour and i was like, "Sir - but i thot you were in a rush, i cant find your copy of the receipt, so get back another day " and i shoo him off.

Another pak cik came, wanted the individual studio package but initially wanted a double pose with family & individual - when he finishes writing his details, he has the guts to tell me - he wants the individual package. I was like darn it, fine - i ask him to re-write again & when he wrote the wrong column, i said not these but the other two, he says mana I tahu, you pointed this & this and I gave it back to him, pakcik - berapa KALI sudah saya EXPLAIN sini dengan sini? He was silent then with ppls around all looking at me (wow, this gal - dun main main with her)

Lastly, almost got into a heated conversation with a bloody gal who took the photos but not paying. Got her name and ID, wow - she was at the wrong end but scream and shouted as if there were no tomorrow and was practically lying that she was on her way back to hometown when i slapped her back telling her, "miss - yday i called you, you told me you will come over as you were at the exam unit. She continued to scream, i shouted back and said don't use these kind of tone on me as you are on the wrong as your action constitute stealing already. If you dont remit the money, we will report to your University Council and will not be held responsible for any consequences". Don't blame us later

Phew, when I think of it - man, a thing which was so simple and straightfwd but how these simple things can be translated to the many conflicts and complication at times. And with, psychology plays a big factor when they decide they want to buy or not as the grads photos are somewhat tempting for them to not take it (once in a lifetime, ma!)...

Few more days to go - I hope there won't be people coming tomorrow telling me that they've forgot to bring their lipsticks, perfumes, left their family at home or etc...


(Trust me, these people they can and will do it. Sometimes it makes one think, how one thing can be so similar yet DIFFERENT in so many ways!!!)